Needing maintenance

Another Monday morning has arrived as I tell myself to relax and remain calm. The projects are piling up on my desk. There isn't enough of me to go around, nor enough hours in the day or days in the week. I'm feeling stressed over one project in particular. I hate it with a passion!! I drag my feet when it comes to certain things that I fear. Maybe fear is a poor choice of words, but none the less I procrastinate with some things that are uncomfortable and where I lack strength and knowledge. I'm certain that if I had some maintenance on a consistent basis I could face the world a little braver.

Baby it's cold outside!!! We were buried under a huge blanket of snow on Friday, and the temperatures are in the single digits.

Lovely gift found in my inbox this morning!

Feb 2, 2010

I’m sitting in my office glancing out of the window at the gray sky. I woke to find a fresh coat of snow on the ground this morning, but the temperatures rose up to almost 40 degrees in the afternoon melting almost everything. I continue to hold off washing my red Ford SUV knowing it will only get dirty 2 minutes after I pay $15 to have it shiny and clean. At least at my old house I could drive home carefully and park it in the garage where it would be mostly protected from the grimy winter dirt. I used to open the garage door years ago just so I could look at the clean automobiles and appreciate their shiny coats and sparkling tire rims. I’m sure that I’m not the only girl who loves cars. I used to hang out all the time with my Daddy in the garage as a young girl falling in love with a red Mustang and a blue Cutlass.

I was seduced away from my desk earlier today to meet up with the coffee shop guy at the park. I mentioned him in my last post. He apologized for calling me late on Friday. I’ve been playing hard to get since Friday, so I broke down and needed to get away from my desk for an hour. We walked and talked for a few minutes until he surprised me with a hug and kiss to the check. I figured he must be getting more interested since last week only consisted of 2 hand shakes. We strolled for a couple more minutes then he got even more forward tasting my lips with a sensual kiss. Once I gave him my tongue, he was excited! (He needs some kissing practice, but I also thought that about the Handyman the 1st time he kissed me.) He was nervous anytime someone walked near us, but I let him adjust to his surroundings. I pretty much don’t care who sees me or watches if I am having public displays of affection. We sat on the picnic table where I straddled the bench to face him. His hands dropped right into my lap to stroke and caress my thighs then he moved up to explore the swell of my breasts. He told me that he wanted to place his cock between my tits and give me a pearl necklace. It’s always the shy ones who let go and turn out to be wild and adventurous in bed I thought to myself. We began to walk some more finding ourselves standing on a bridge over a stream. He walked up behind me where I could feel his hard cock rubbing against my ass. He asked me if I was getting wet. I was about to tell him to reach inside of my pants and find out for himself, but I held back since someone was approaching us from the nature trail.

At the office I have got my hands full. There are so many projects and deadlines that I am putting in extra hours each day. I am crossing my fingers that I pick-up on this new technology and don’t fall on my face. I know that you are never too old to learn new skills, but I get scared sometimes. I hate to fail or look stupid in front of others where my career is concerned. I actually found myself sleeping better the past couple of nights. I am so exhausted and need the rest so that I can function at the office. The new management is keeping me on my toes in a good way. It’s about time that I reported up through someone who actually cared about those who he managed.

I need to wrap this up and get home to my kids. It’s taco night!!!

Love,
Kitten

My hands are full.

It has been such a busy week since I last got to sit down and blog about life. I found myself swamped with projects and men. I wasn't able to break my juggling habit. I did slow down for about a month, but I only came back needing and craving more than ever. I agreed to give one of the guys at the office another chance. This past Monday was his day off, but he joined me for lunch which consisted of us only driving a short distance away from the office and going at it in the car like horny teenagers. We were rather daring in the daylight yanking down our jeans and undies, boldly climbing each other's body and orally pleasing one another for an entire hour. The windows were so fogged.

On Wednesday I found myself talking to a new potential lover at the Starbucks. We both agreed that we would like to get to know each other better, but he seems a little shy and scared. He asked me to meet him on Friday night for a drink, but he was going out with some of his buddies first. I decided shortly after 6PM on Friday evening that if he didn't call by the time I was done dressing that I wasn't going to worry about him.

Friday, I met yet another new guy for lunch who ended up rubbing my foot and leg under the table. I was melting just sitting there. After lunch we ended up walking to our cars but somehow ended up in his Honda van. We started making out then I was such a slut and found myself with my tits out and jeans pulled down. He ate my pussy like he was starving causing kitten to explode. His cock appeared peaking out of blue boxer shorts and my hands had to explore followed by my mouth. He came pretty quick, which I was grateful for considering I needed to get back to my office for a meeting.

To summarize I gave 3 different men blow jobs within a week's time. I didn't even mention that I decided that I would meet up with Woody again this evening since he asked to see me several times this week. When I got there I found him soaking in a hot bath. He looked very sexy! He ordered me to undress and kneel beside the tub with my tits hanging over. My hands caressed and stroked him. He ordered me to stand with my hands against the wall legs spread wide. He spanked my ass several times. Woody teased and caressed my pussy until I was begging him to get me off. I sat on the edge of the tub with my ass and pussy hanging over where he could sit and play. He bit my ass, stroked my clit, finger fucked my cunt and ass, and played with my nipples until I was climaxing over and over. He got pretty excited and blew his load. He stood to shower off while I climbed into his bed. Shortly after he came over to join me, his phone rang with his kids talking and asking for him which then led to the kid's mother getting on the phone and arguing with Woody. Needless to say, he begged me not to leave but said he needed to drive his youngest son around the block a few times until he fell asleep. He was gone about 30 mins which left kitten dozing in Woody's bed. Woody returned sad and upset... I got up and dressed leaving feeling mad and upset myself.

I was already exhausted this evening and told Woody a couple of times that we could play another time, but he begged me to come over. I gave up attending a Tastefully Simple party with a girlfriend, passed up having dinner with a male friend, and missing out on drinks with one more male. I got to be honest and say that the drinks guy called while I was in Woody's bed, but I was already cranky at him because it was getting late.

Lack of sleep makes me cranky and ill. I am mad at myself for being such a slut this week, but mostly because I am frustrated and not getting the fix I crave.

Motorcycle Daddy is distant with me since the ex moved in, and I am communicating less and less with him each day. I haven't been honest with him about finding these playmates, but he hasn't asked nor suggested that I find a playmate. I know that his idea of a playmate is another submissive female. I have been making attempts to see L, but she is always sick with a headache or tells me her hubby has plans so I am done with her. I will be her friend, but I can't be there for her all the time when she isn't there for me.

As I drove home tonight I found myself beginning to cry, but I don't know why. I am just a lost broken soul at the moment. I can't find my North Star. I wish that I knew my purpose in life... Is it too late to find a new career where I can be happy and successful, and if so.. no idea what I want to be when I grow up.

I hope this makes some sense to those who have been kind enough to read the whole post, and if you did read this far, thank you!

Spanked, Fucked, and Satisfied

I just realized that I missed my own blogging anniversary. I starting my blogging past-time last year on January 20Th although no one can view the original Complicated kitten blog since it was blocked in late August by google. For those of you who have been with me from the very beginning, thank you for encouraging me to move forward and to keep at it. Blogging is such a release and gives me so much happiness.

This past week I met 2 men who happened to work within the same office building as me, but I just didn't feel any chemistry with them. I can say that I at least made a friend who I can just put my feet up with and just talk about being naughty.

I responded to another gentleman who emailed me about my CL ad. We exchanged a few emails which led to a few text messages and phone calls. Our schedules kept us from meeting earlier in the week, but we managed to have a date tonight.

I came home from the office and showered while following my date routine. Shaving legs, pussy, and underarms nice and smooth followed up by lotion, makeup, and perfume. I dressed in a tight pair of bluejeans, Frye boots, no panties, plunging bra, blouse unbuttoned revealing a peek at my lovely cleavage, and a leather jacket. I felt HOT! My finger tips even sparked painted in OPI's new 'Mad As A Hatter' polish from the Alice in Wonderland collection.

I will call this new lover Woody. I felt a little anxious as I waited for Woody to meet me. I watched him approach and checked him out from top to bottom. Very nice! We shook hands and began to chat. The next thing I knew we were driving together on our way out for the evening. We didn't even make it around the block before he asked me to pull over. He reached over and gave me a deep passionate hot kiss. DAMN, HE TASTED GOOD! We circled back around to the parking lot where we had just left from and found ourselves walking to his apartment.

After locking the door, our arms were tangled around each other as our mouths sought out more kisses and the clothes began coming off. He had me pushed up against the wall with his hard cock pressing against me. He removed the clip from my hair causing it to drop down over my shoulders. The next thing I knew we were in the bathroom where my blouse found it's way to the floor and my bra went flying next releasing my full breasts for his inspection. One of his hands worked it way up caressing my shoulder and neck then grasping my hair tightly. I believe I mentioned him telling me that he was a dominate lover. Let's just say that this was where his dominance took over for the evening. He pulled my hair hard causing me to lean back against him with my mouth opening for more of his kisses. As his mouth was giving my neck a work-over his hands slid down to unfasten my jeans and reached in quickly finding a bare smooth pussy. He didn't waste any time getting me out of the jeans and boots. I did my best to help get him out of his clothes. He sat on the edge of the tub and began to stroke his cock.

He ordered me to my knees to look at his hard throbbing cock. I couldn't help but to reach out and begin to stroke him. My mouth did the most natural thing. I couldn't resist tasting him. Then suddenly his hands swept my hair up into a firm grasp, and I was told that he did not tell me to touch or taste him just yet. I found myself bent over getting a sound spanking. THANK YOU GOD! FINALLY A MAN WHO SEEMS TO ENJOY SPANKING!

After my punishment I was allowed to suck his cock, but I wasn't allowed to use my hands. I did the best I could sucking and swirling my tongue up and down his big cock. His fingers seemed to enjoy my nipples because he was sure to offer them up attention. I must admit that I do enjoy a man with a hairy chest and stomach, which he had (so does Handyman).

He ordered me to sit on the edge of the tub next while he explored my pussy. He told me to lift my leg up onto the sink while he sat on the floor and tortured me with his tongue and hands. I was whimpering and moaning like a bitch in heat! My hips were grinding against him as my hands were holding tight to the tub so I wouldn't fall.

He told me that I had enough pleasure and it was time for him to cum if I wanted to ride his cock. He led me out to his bed where once again I was told no hands. He warned me that if he felt any teeth or if it came out of my mouth, I would be punished. Guess what? I had a dry mouth from taking some sinus med so I got in lots of trouble. He appeared to love pulling my hair and spanking my ass. Woody got off in my mouth, and I swallowed every drop of his hot white seed.

I was told several times to play with my pussy. I was graced by his hard cock penetrating my aching cunt. Let me tell you... it felt so good! I was lost in pleasure! I was getting spanked and fucked...

He placed me on my back with my legs spread wide and began fucking and playing with my tits. At one point he was going to town squeezing my tits. I kept thinking that I would have bruises for sure. I have no idea how many orgasms that I had up to that point, but he flipped me over onto my stomach and spanked my ass more. I was a good girl answering him with my 'yes Sir' responses where appropriate. I felt him dripping lube down the crack of my ass and thought, oh shit! Son of a gun if he didn't thrust that huge cock into my ass causing me to cry out in pain. I felt like such a big baby. He pulled out and comforted me with a finger induced orgasm. Later, I admitted that I was actually disappointed that he stopped fucking my ass.

After a rest period once again I felt lube dripping down my ass then his finger gently working me into a relaxed state. He whispered that he was going to fuck my ass before the night was over. I found myself begging for his cock and this time he penetrated my ass slowly and gently until I was pushing back against him. I was getting off big time! He climaxed and went to shower followed shortly by me.

As I sit here and write this post, I am a very satisfied kitten who is sore all over. I do hope that I sleep soundly after such an erotic D/s evening. I wouldn't mind seeing my new friend again in the future.

The picture above was borrowed from my dear friend, 1manview.

Jan 20th

Thanks everyone for the comments and questions! Also, welcome new readers :) I just got off the phone with a new potential friend who is local and single. He runs his own business and is a year younger than me. He is a father of 2. I just couldn't help asking if he considered himself to be dominate or submissive. Bingo!!!! He is dominate and told me that if we make plans where I show up late, I will be punished!!! WEG!!!!

Yes, I am back in the saddle and looking forward to meeting my new friend face to face.

I met a guy who answered my ad yesterday at my office building, but I just didn't feel any chemistry with him.

Jan 18th

As I sit on this hard wooden chair in my dining room sipping my cup of coffee, I can't stop smiling because I spent a wonderful evening in the bed of my dearest Handyman. Our schedules finally worked out where we could spend a night of leisure together which turned out to be a hot night of kinky erotic sex! My pussy is so sore from the pounding he gave me and the tears easily came when we bent me over and began to pound my ass and gave me a lecture about calling things off back in late November. I sobbed and my tears soaked his bedsheets. I'm a very happy submissive today! Perhaps I will share more of those details later when I am not rushing.

I went to see Avatar over the weekend with my family, and it was amazing. I could see it again.

I decided to post an ad on CL looking for a special friend with benefits who worked or lived in the neighborhood of my office. I got about 45 responses within a 24 hour period. I have been reading thru them and responding to a few of their emails. I may have found someone who works at my same office building. When I read his email, I felt drawn to him. He asked me out to lunch today, however it was too short notice for my liking since I'm having a lazy day off.